Ever wonder if other people's life are better than yours?? I do. And Im feeling demoralised by it. If you were to see my previous post, it's my cuzzin's engagement. Haiz.. Its so grand! Well, it's the first from my family to have someone marrying off u noe.. And it started out grand.. =( Well, not only dat. I just feel her life is so blessed! She studies in Australia, working hard, Uncle's rich, has a car, finish with her graduation, fly back her and get engage.. Now, having her fun time in Malaysia..

But let's talk abt mine.. Ever since I started poly life, it's nvr been too happy for me. Why?? School's practically work. It's on a 9-5 schedule!! Yea, yea.. Im not suppose to complain since I chose it rite? But seriously, no life. I start skul at 9, finish at 5, start work at 6, finish at 11, go home, sleep, morning wake, back to skul, finish skul, work, den go hm slp, and routine starts over again.. Im soooo tired........ -_____-

Den again on the other hand, my mom has been a nag. Cos why? I hardly cleaned the house.. If Im always werking, hardlay at home, how can I be lazy?? Im juz tired.. =(

Haiz.. Nvm la.. I'll update some other time.. Tml I got work after skul.. *roll eyes* Nitez!!

As you all noe, I am currently in RP rite?? RP, we are in small classrooms which is about 25 student. With a FACILITATOR. FACI for short. Dey are not der to teach but the oni thing dat dey do is like asking fucking question again n again.. It's juz like dey are stupid or sumting u noe..

Ydae, was Cognitive. I don't noe why we are learning dis. It's all abt talking COCK! I had dis faci called Jessica. She looks nice n patient. But once she gave u e grade, DATS IT!!! She's not a good faci! N she likes to ask so much question abt ur presentation. Ask n ask n ask.. FUCK!!

N today, is Science nothing to do wif my diploma at all man! Argh..........!!!!!!!! N my faci more shiok! Got mole in between her eyebrows! Old Bitch!! She oso another one. Ask a lot of question!! Haiz.. I alrdy explain everything. N what's more, my slide, I did it wif the a china student which is like the best in Science. Den sumtimes, she ask questions, she doesn't even noe how to go str8 to e point la.. FUCK man!!!!!!!

Overall.. TO THOSE FACI WHOM I HATE.. FUCK YOU BITCHES!!!! FEACES IS WHAT YOU ARE!!!

Peeps.. Peeps.. Haha.. I was suppose to upload dis lyk last week. Forgotz... Haha..

Sori for the late and rare update! Haiz. Been so bz lately!! Aniwaesz, today was the last day of my school hols!! Argh.. Tings juz happen so fast!! I hate it! :( Here's wat I'd done so far.



Monday, I work for like 12 hrs!! With no break! Haiz.. Tiring u noe... Haiz.. Tuesday, I worked from like 8-4. Den I went hm, and get ready.. My family went to the Airport to send my gm off cos she's gg to Perth to see my elder cousin's graduation ceremony.



The following day was a Wednesday, the day which I had camp. My dad send me there cos my bag was like so freaking big and heavy! Haha.. Called Baby cos I miss him so much, and dats the day which is our 28th Month Anniversary!! Muackz!!! :D Aniwaes, it was a school camp that was open to the entire school. a few of my class mates had sign up for it. I was quite excited though cos the programmes were so much fun! Dey had games, T-shirt, Jacket, Halloween party, with points.. ouh!! And amazing race! We had to like go the places ourselves and find the clues! and so some forfeits, running here and der.. It was seriously fun la. Haha.. Let's see, me, aisyah, hariz, win, kennia, barathi, and gabriel were der. Berlin was one of the leaders. Haha.. We did made a lot of frenz..



Aniwaez, it was a hectic wk n I wudnt mind gg again.. Haha..

Its 6.50 am.. N Im packing for camp. Haiz.. Today is the 28th month for Baby n me. N I felt so so bad because juz ydae he told me dat he actually wanted to go out wif me. I totally didn't noe I've got it coming. So I tot I wanted to go for camp. But why didnt he told me??!! Haiz..

I guess it's all my fault huh.. I was to ignorant to see what's going on around me.. N I guess dat is why dis is all happening. Well, at first I tot that Baby was all everything. He being to sensitive. I was up and about for almost everyday. Like juz last week, I was werking on Thurs, Fri, Sun.. Dats all abt 6 hrs each. Last monday, I werked for 12 hrs alone. N Tuesday, I was werking for 6. If ders skul, I'd be werking like after skul. N he sometimes wanna meet me, I wanted to go out wif him, he's got skul, mine finish late. Im juz so so bz. When can I haf a break? I juz wished I cud slp forever... (-_-)

But after I gave it a lot of thinking, I guess I've been to naive to understand how he feels. maybe I really have been neglecting him. Im always doing things and dat makes us hardly meet. Haiz.. I feel so so bad.. Im really sori Baby.. I really am. Anywaes, I juz wanna wish u since I juz said it out on the phone.

I'm so pist u noe.. Y is everybody getting on my nerves??!!! It's soo annoying u noe.. I'm so tried from work and people juz like to bug me sometimes.. Monday, Wednesday, Thurday, Friday and Saturday.. Been working my ass out at Northpoint. Been working at Guardian at basement 1. So can u like imagine how's life? Morning, wake up, go skul, finish skul at 4.30, go to work, work til 11 e latest, at den go hm, den slp.

The nest day it's like the same routine over n over again u noe. *faint* It's so tiring.. Sometimes, I'm soo tired dat I want to slp on the bus. But then, Baby mostly calls me every morning. So I was like tired to answer him sometimes. It's not dat I'm bad or anything, I'm just tired. So dun blame me if I'm always quiet on the hp ok? I didn't put down cos I noe dat I've been neglecting him quite often. He's been having the hols, I've been at skul doing work. Im always on the run while he's at hm relaxing.. Wer's the justice here?? Sometimes, it's like dis dat I always get mad at him.. I love him lots but I'm juz irritated at times wen he calls wen I'm bz. It's not wat I want but we all have our own life to do. If I say dis, sometimes, I scared l8r he's hurt or something.

Den sumore my family... I came back at 11, slpt at 12. Den ask me to wake up early to go to e market. Den wat abt my sister?? She hardly, does any house chores, or do the laundry.. So y does my mom always let her slp? It's so not fair!! Haiz.. I'm tired, slpy, my body's aching.. I have to juggle my time appropriately. If I nvr work, I got no money.. No money, cannot pay bill, den who want to pay for me??!! Nobody rite??? Den again blame me fo spending too much time at work or at skul. U can't blame me if RP is from 9-5. It's like dat. Den dun tell me, I can make frenz?? Argh... Wth!

Haiz.. Some ppl just dun tink. It's like so irritating.... Do u guys realise dat I'm trying my best not to use the 'F' word here?? Omg.. It's so hard... Haiz. Sometimes, these are the reasons y I wanted to slp forever. In coma at least. Den i'll haf peace n quiet. -____- Screw u!!