Its 6.50 am.. N Im packing for camp. Haiz.. Today is the 28th month for Baby n me. N I felt so so bad because juz ydae he told me dat he actually wanted to go out wif me. I totally didn't noe I've got it coming. So I tot I wanted to go for camp. But why didnt he told me??!! Haiz..

I guess it's all my fault huh.. I was to ignorant to see what's going on around me.. N I guess dat is why dis is all happening. Well, at first I tot that Baby was all everything. He being to sensitive. I was up and about for almost everyday. Like juz last week, I was werking on Thurs, Fri, Sun.. Dats all abt 6 hrs each. Last monday, I werked for 12 hrs alone. N Tuesday, I was werking for 6. If ders skul, I'd be werking like after skul. N he sometimes wanna meet me, I wanted to go out wif him, he's got skul, mine finish late. Im juz so so bz. When can I haf a break? I juz wished I cud slp forever... (-_-)

But after I gave it a lot of thinking, I guess I've been to naive to understand how he feels. maybe I really have been neglecting him. Im always doing things and dat makes us hardly meet. Haiz.. I feel so so bad.. Im really sori Baby.. I really am. Anywaes, I juz wanna wish u since I juz said it out on the phone.

I'm so pist u noe.. Y is everybody getting on my nerves??!!! It's soo annoying u noe.. I'm so tried from work and people juz like to bug me sometimes.. Monday, Wednesday, Thurday, Friday and Saturday.. Been working my ass out at Northpoint. Been working at Guardian at basement 1. So can u like imagine how's life? Morning, wake up, go skul, finish skul at 4.30, go to work, work til 11 e latest, at den go hm, den slp.

The nest day it's like the same routine over n over again u noe. *faint* It's so tiring.. Sometimes, I'm soo tired dat I want to slp on the bus. But then, Baby mostly calls me every morning. So I was like tired to answer him sometimes. It's not dat I'm bad or anything, I'm just tired. So dun blame me if I'm always quiet on the hp ok? I didn't put down cos I noe dat I've been neglecting him quite often. He's been having the hols, I've been at skul doing work. Im always on the run while he's at hm relaxing.. Wer's the justice here?? Sometimes, it's like dis dat I always get mad at him.. I love him lots but I'm juz irritated at times wen he calls wen I'm bz. It's not wat I want but we all have our own life to do. If I say dis, sometimes, I scared l8r he's hurt or something.

Den sumore my family... I came back at 11, slpt at 12. Den ask me to wake up early to go to e market. Den wat abt my sister?? She hardly, does any house chores, or do the laundry.. So y does my mom always let her slp? It's so not fair!! Haiz.. I'm tired, slpy, my body's aching.. I have to juggle my time appropriately. If I nvr work, I got no money.. No money, cannot pay bill, den who want to pay for me??!! Nobody rite??? Den again blame me fo spending too much time at work or at skul. U can't blame me if RP is from 9-5. It's like dat. Den dun tell me, I can make frenz?? Argh... Wth!

Haiz.. Some ppl just dun tink. It's like so irritating.... Do u guys realise dat I'm trying my best not to use the 'F' word here?? Omg.. It's so hard... Haiz. Sometimes, these are the reasons y I wanted to slp forever. In coma at least. Den i'll haf peace n quiet. -____- Screw u!!