I feel soo ridiculous.. I dunno y but I keep losing my things.. A few days ago, I lost my specs wen I went to wild wild wet. Den this wk, I lost my necklace which By gave me.. Haiz.. I was so depressed.. Den juz ydae, I lost my thumbdrive!! Can u c how irritated I was?? I haf a short term memory.. I cant remember wer I put my things, or how ppl look lyk wen dey walk past me.. Haiz.. Im soo bankrupt! Den I need lots of stuffs.. My daily n personal stuffs.. Lyk specs, thumbdrive, handphone, personal things.. Damn.. wer m I gg to get e money?? I oni werk lyk a few days a wk.. N I dunno how much my pay is.. I havent even get my first pay.. Haiz.. Hopefully its gg to be more den $200.. I rilli hope so u noe.. Haiz.

Haiz.. Im kinda bored now.. Werking rite now. On break. Til 4. Haha.. Soo fast.. Everything is alright now.. I haf forgiven By. Cos I noe I dun haf e heart 2 let him go. I alrdy love him n e fact cant change. He has stolen my heart n I will nvr let him go without him returning it back 2 me. Haha.. I LOVE U LOADS!!! Muackz! I noe he wud do anything for me. And I rilli appreciate dat. Walking me 2 werk, taking me frm werk. Frm home, back to my hm. I noe its rili tiring for u. Hope I didnt overtire u by doing all dis. Well, I gtg for now.. Werk, werk, werk... Haiz.. Nvm.. Toodles.. :)

Wer haf u gone? E guy whom I love. U were always der for me. U nvr hold any grudges against me. U wud do anthing for me even wen its too much for u 2 handle.. All I noe was dat u were innocent den. U want e world wif u.. Now u had e world, u wan more.. It seems lyk ur a diff person now. Cheeky, irritating at times, starting 2 get sensitive. I dunno.. I miss e old u. I rili do..

I dunno why.. But I feel dat I haf disappointed everyone which include my dear ones, n my frenz.. Misunderstanding haf mixed one's feeling dat makes love turns to hate. By knowing ur feelings, I tried my very best 2 entertain u, treating u how we always did. Talked to u to make tings better. Dat was wat I hope for. But... I was too hopeful. I SHUDNT haf bothered wif u.. It was soo STUPID of me. Seriously. Its a waste of my tym, my energy n my kindness.. I feel lyk a total IDIOT. I felt lyk I was toking 2 e wall...! Hmm.... Ok... IF dats wat u wan, den fine! By all means. U wan it dat way huh.. Ok. Dun tok 2 me. Dun touch me. Until u feel right, den tell me. Dun hope dat I dunno how u feel. Now, u felt dat sumtings wrong, u came 2 tok 2 me. Trying 2 find e fault dat lies within us. U wan me 2 open up. Telling u how I feel abt ur doings, n my feelings.. Y now u wanna noe?? Its too late. E shell has close tightly n coldly. I haf given u e chance.. But u missed it. Too bad. I gif u e treatment dat I haf received earlier. By ignoring u n keeping mum. But u cant accept it. U even threw my hand. Wat kind of attitude is dis.. Ok. Nvm. Be it dat way. U can feel wat u wanna feel, n I'll go back 2 class. I can no longer face ur attitude. I dun wanna face u. I felt dat I will loose my top shouting at u. I kept it quiet.. But dat quietness has hurt me soooo MUCH dat I can stand it anymore dat I haf 2 cry.. It was painful. I tot quietly. Maybe, I was wrong. Misunderstanding was a natural feeling. N maybe I was a bit too much wif my attitude. Ok. Dats fine. I forgive u. I dun blame u alrdy. N I dunno wat more u wan frm me.. I left. End of e day, we met again. I dunno wat 2 feel. Happy, or sad or disappointed. I dun care. I try not 2 look at him. Looking at him will cause a flashback in my mind. I acted cold. U cant possibly expect me 2 forget wat has happen u noe. I wont forgive dat easily. U wanted 2 noe wat was e misunderstanding u had. Ask frm e person hu said dat 2 u. Dun ask me. Im not ur tape recorder u noe. All tings are cleared. I HOPE u felt stupid at dat point of time. Make u realise dat u DO haf a small portion of sensitivity. I noe all along dat u tried 2 cheer me up n make me happy again. But too bad. I cant forget e tings u haf done. Dun try any harder. It'll b a waste of ur energy. I too cant b bothered 2 entertain. All my energy has dried up.. Im tired.. Rilly. Is der anything else 2 hurt me further. Mayb dis is e opportunity 2 do it. Im all for it. Get it done n over with. Haiz.. Though I had enough, I cant hate u.. I juz cant. Cant let it go easily.. Dun cry cos u tink u've hurt me. Cry only wen Im gone. With dat, I will noe dat U miss me..

Haha.. Im kinda bored now.. HUUNGRY!!!! At werk. Werking at Oishi Pizza. As an operator.. Haha... I noe its shitty. Lolx.. But I find it relaxing though..

Haiz.. Sometimes I dunno wat 2 feel at times. Feeling e mixture of regret, hatred, suffering, suffocation, complicated.. All in 1 heart, pumping painfully. Breathing heavily makes me giddy, tired, n restless. I dunno y I feel lyk dis.. Its soo frustrating. Rilli it is.. Tired 2 entertain. But wen I feel alright, dey make it feel lyk I shud feeling down all over again. Keeping quiet all e way. Might s well dun accompany me rite?? Waste their precious time. Dis type of ppl makes me angry. Rili. Den wat makes U more frustrating is dat wen U realise dat ur bez fren added ur guy or watso ever. I dun admit I m jealous though ur alrdy in a relationship wif him. But hu wont wen ur bez fren can slp wif other guys? Dun dat feeling occur to u? Geez.. Happen 2 me b4 wen my x is communicating behind my back, went out 2 "study". Freaks. I juz knew dat she wud add him. Fine.. Wateva. I dun care anymore.. If Im rili angry, ur gg 2 get it. Go ahead n make me cry. I dun care anymore.. Sometimes I feel dat nobody can prove me wrong dat guys r all e same. Its so disappointed. Rilli.. Y r ppl lyk dis?? Y must my bez fren always add my bf?? EVERY SINGLE ONE OF DEM???? Y??????????? ITS FUCKING IRRITATING!! GET OFF MY BACK! Ur rilli hurting me. I dun care hu. Im too sad n angry 2 type further. Gtg slp.. Bye.