Haiz.... U noe... I juz update my blog ydae.... But der seems 2 b a prob dat I cant update or even save it s draft.. Isnt dat lyk soooo tiring 2 type it all over again????!!!!!!! Tired sia.... Esp wen I alrdy type sooo long... #$%^&#$%^&#%^&*(&$@!^

U noe.. I rii cant wait 4 skul. Haha.. From my 18th bdae til now I haf been counting down til sku. Cos y?? I rilli cant wait 2 meet my baby!! I rilli miss him soo much.. Though we can meet, i tink it'lloni b a fast 1. Cos Im very bz at hm. And its fasting month which I cant rilli go out much. Haiz.. E oni ting dat kep us close is by calling each other at nite n tk 4 long hrs.. I noe its nothing much ar. I noe I cant c his face, but at least I get 2 hear his voice.. Which is quite gd enough 4 me. Haha.. S Im typing dis out, I can imagine how we will react wen we meet.. Haha.. I tink I'll b jumpin 4 joy alrdy.. Haha.. I rili cant wait!!!!!!!!!! Can I cry???!! BY!!!! I miss u soo badly!!! 19 days w/o seeing u is a whole lot of suffering noe!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cant wait!!! Damn.. Til den..

Fuck 2 life.. I hate my life. even if u tried 2 console me, or u already comfort me, its no use. Period. I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's cos I nid 2 do work at hm. Cos of dat, I always n I mean ALWAYS cant go out. Supposingly my sis nids 2 go 2 hospital. N ders oni me 2 send her. My stupid gm delibrately forced my mom 2 stop work n send her. Juz cos e maid will b at hm alone wif her, doesnt mean she haf 2 drag me along bitch. She said I haf 2 do e work. Cant leave it all 2 e maid.. Bah.. Den wats e fucking use of e maid. Cant I get some fresh air outside? Its lyk Im in prison. CANT go out. DO e daily stuff. DONT be lazy. Wateva shit face!! I was so pist dat I felt totally ruined. Dat I cried by myself. Y??!! Y must it b me?! Y do I haf e shittiest life ever. So wat if Im pretty or beautiful?! Its no use cos behind dat pretty face, I HAF 2 do all e shittiest stuff. Other kids in town haf all e luxury 2 relax, haf fun, enjoy in e sun, can go out 2 wer dey wanna go n forget all e fuck behind. By is now at e gym, probably hafing a gd tym der. Its always not fair. I feel lyk Im Cinderella. Being bullied, suffering pains, heart broken, no life at all. Its all shit. Sometimes I wan myself dead. For gd. Probably getting e burden off me. Den mayb my parents wud b happy. No nid 2 pay skul fees, 1 kid less. Saving lots of money.. U might suggest asking my sis 2 help out, but nooo........................... she's giving excuses dat she has classes after skul. Wud help out after dat. FOR WAT bitch??! Its all over. Now u can juz ly on ur shitty bed n go 2 slp. Pretend all u wan dat u haf gastric. Wateva. I HATE U PEOPLE!!! I HATE U!!! Wats more. My stupid maid haf 2 rub it in. I already change my clothes 2 send my sis. But wen my gm said no, she haf 2 laugh it off telling me dat I didnt nid 2 go. I KNOW DAT bitch. Y cant she juz concentrate on doping her chores. 2 hell wif u ppl!! From now on, DUN expect me 2 forget my probs! Mind ur OWN business morons! Haiz.. Crying makes me tired. N it hurts my heart a lot. Grr.. Forget it, NOBODY can understand how I feel except myself. Wateva.. I dun gif a shit abt myself anymore. Its plain USELESS.. Fuck 2 life.

ARGH!!!!!!!! My back is rilli killing me!!!! Damn.. Cos y? I paint my living room.. All in 1 day! Damn.. Den in e morning e next day, did some touch up... Haha.. Can I PLEASEEEEE haf a back rub????? Somebody help me!!!!!!! Haiz.. Nvm ar.. I haf nothing 2 say already..