NERVOUS WEDNESDAY, LAZY THURSDAY, FUCKED UP FRIDAY
Wednesday.. E day of my 2nd audition.. Haiz. Was kinda nervous.. Woke up, cleaned my house, lying on my bed waiting for tym 2 past by..Supposed 2 meet Mardhiah at 11.30 at e Yishun interchange.. Was late, due 2 missde e bus, n heavy rain.. Haha.. Manage 2 reach b4 12. Went 2 e shop 2 make my specs but 2 my disappointment, its close.. Den we waited for Baby at e MRT station. He reached abt 12.15, went 2 Ang Mo Kio straight n waited for my bestie 2 arrive. Gave e key 2 him, n we're off.. Took e bus no. 24. Reached skul abt 1.15. Was kinda fast cos Mardhiah was nervous n she's driving me up e wall wif her madness. ONce she's in, we went 2 eat at LJS. Was hungry den.. Came back, sat down, chat n waiting for her 2 came out of e audition room. Soon it was my turn.. Was fucking nervous. Cos der's soo many gals prettier den me.. Was afraid I wud get kicked out.. Haiz. After I was done wif e ting, we went 2 eat again at Toa Payoh cantre.. Fork N Spoons is e name of e place.. Den wet hm 2 rest.. Was rilli tired though..
Thursday.. Was down wif fever, body aches, feeling lazy all day long.. Hiaz.. Dint rili bothered much wif computer. Was bored.. So talked 2 Baby for almost 4 hrs. Den was satisfied. N went 2 slp..
Friday.. Went 2 make my specs today.. Hopefully it'll b done by tml.. Feeling down lately.. Was kinda moody. Der was no way 2 cheer me up.. E oni ting dat wud make it go away was 2 juz stare at e ceiling, tinking abt my life. cried til I was tired.. Wish 2 slp n nvr wake up again.. Tired of everything.. From food, 2 clothings, 2 my life.. Was even tired of breathing.. Haiz.. Y do I live? Wats in it wif me? Y m I feeling or tinking dis way? Y?? Sometimes I juz wish 2 sit by e Esplanade river alone.. Looking at e water tinking of nothing but e wind, water n me.. I juz love it wen Im alone der.. Cools me down wif chocolates oni.. Im tired.. Write some other tym soon..